I'm so fucking awsome. I bit someone twice today. He bit me once it was way hawt. He liked me biting him I made him like yeah lol. I'm such a whore oh well. I'm from CA that makes me way cool...no I dont surff & it rained today so stfu.

SO me & Erick are taking a "brake" I feel bad for like doing it but It had to be done. I made him cry a lot...then again he's made me cry a lot too. I'm worried he'll find someone new & I"ll end up finding no one but then if It dose happen then oh well...I did this for a reason I might not realize it right now but I did. ::sigh:: mating season! crazyness all around. I broke edge I feel guilty about it but oh well I mean I want to hang out with my cusin & just chill drinking wine coolers while talking about boys or like just yeah idk call me weak I dont care I know what I know ange...boys do suck

so ...I've been trying to find someone...but I guess if I dont its okay being single isn't always all that bad. I want to find someone with a mohawk...a real punker lol either that or...like IDK a greaser...hehe woa

  School bleh...friends kinda dissapoint me sometimes but I hope she finds her way soon. There's a show tomorrow I cant wait! Blah I want to two step!!! Even if I do suck I dont care I'll be like the only girl out there doing it since hxc jen is in LA...I heart her she's one of the best.

  hey If I dont know you and you're checking my blog out...please drop a line!

People dont like me. You know whats the weird part though? The people that do like me completely love me. Its all really ironic. Like I know I can have my moments when I'm completely annoying but who the fuck dosen't? I annoy my self for goodness sakes!

  One thing that really really pisses me off is when people tell me I dont love them. Sure its fine when its not true but when I seriously mean it and they're like no you dont, it really hurts and it makes me angry. I did this boy friend application on myspace and only ange filled it out haha thats kinda funny but shut up lol. Everyone wants my nuts they just dont like to admit it.

You bitches are perverts!! So I'm really bored and Have NO ONE to talk to...thats practicly why I write in this thing. I have that cindy lopper song stuck in my head....girls just wanna have fun we can all blame mike for that one yes we can!

 So I keep fucking with my hair and I really want to cut it. I said I was gona let it grow so I'm really fighting the temptation but if my mom takes me to get it cut tomorrow I'm fur sure taking the offer. I should get a xanga because I can...well no I dont want one they really dont intrest me but maybe if I look at it...no I have like enough diarys...I talk to my self a lot...maybe instead of always being quite around people that I just met I should talk to them because I kinda get tired of talking to my self. I met this really cool girl that I could probably talk for hours with because she's just that cool ya know? I should cut my hair my self I mean I cant fuck it up that bad...but then again if I look at people who have cut it them selfs I kinda change my mind ...but like sometimes barbers can really fuck up ya know? someone IM ME RKRGTEDGE @aol.com

You are all still perverts...so Me and my mother were on the way to watsonville right and I had my head phones on and everthing and I look at the car ahead of us and it says "marriage= *girl stick figure* *guy stick figure*" I got so mad and I was thinking " can you say homophobic any louder than that?" and I was gona say that to my mom but I thought twice but I said fuck it she'll probably agree and I told her and she looks at me and says :

"no I actually was thinking of getting one of those"

"what? why would you do that?"

"why not?"

"because its not right do you think god would want you showing shit like that?"

"yes maybe how would you know"

well duh fuckin' aye! I just god I think jesus would fucking let them get married man its love leave them alone for fuck sakes they're people too then she fucking chimes in again when I put on my head phones back on

"whats your problem man...your views are changing"

I was like no effing duh woman open up your mind for once in your whole entire life the only reason you put up with me and my music and the way I dress is because you have to!! Because legally you fucking have to and wouldn't it be a fucking shame if I left and you were known to our whole religious peices of shit family that you were a bad mother and that I left! So I don't belive that marriage is just for women and men its for men and men and women and women so stfu already!!!!

Bestfriends to me means that

*you are there for me when everyone else leaves me

*you put up with my bitching cause you love me and think its funny

*Listen to me even when I'm not making sense

*Pay attention even when I'm bitching or being annoying because thats what friends do

* You know that half the time when I joke about my self I'm being serious

*You can't picture me not being your friend

*You stand up for me when people talk shit or just dont say anything

*You tell me when you've talked shit cause you feel bad

*You'd die inside if I died but you would continue living cause thats what I would want you to do

  Okay like I am a pretty bad person some times and I hurt your feelings from time to time but just know that I dont mean to sometimes I become so furstrated with things I just do stupid things. If you're ever mad at me don't leave me because I've been left by a lot of people and it dosen't...feel good.I know I can be really annoying but just stick it out I'm a good person. I actually am very sensitive because I was teased a lot at school and called names at home. I never escaped it not ever I dreamt about it and when I woke up I lived it. No matter what I do what I say I will ALWAYS love you. I know I'm not the kind of friend you're proud of having I'm not the kind of person you brag to your friends about having but I'll ALWAYS keep you in a high place above all. I know you've talked shit I dont care just tell me its fine we'll talk it out. For my true friends the ones that dont leave me the ones that read between the lines and KNOW who I am I Just want you to know that I love you and sorrys are the best things ever. I am a very proud person I am I'll admit it but you know what? I will say I'm sorry its hard sure but when I say it I MEAN it so dont take my "sorrys" lightly.

<b>For those of you just meeting me</b>

 I can be pretty weird when you first meet me. I get pretty nervous when I first meet people I think they're judging me or they don't like me and are just talking to me out of pity (I am very paranoid). So if you just met me and you think I'm a loser just give me another chance and keep talking to me because eventually that wall will come down and I'll be my self.

The people that have stuck by me so far:

Mike L.

Marilyn G.

Ange

Jasmin A.

Brian (online guy that even when I annoy him continues to Instant message me hah)

 Guys I love you I really do. I can be a bitch and I can be a jealous freak but I have my reasons thank you for looking past all the negative sides of me and just yeah &hearts;

scene: Girl walks into coffee shop book in hand. Medium height She's wearing a  pink pocadoted dress the dots are black. She's wearing heals about 4 inches same pattern as her dress.Hair is black long to her sholder blades she has betty bangs. She sits down and waits for the waiter. Eyes are brown

 Waiter walks over tall, black hair slicked back(greaser style). Thin but not scrony. Wearing a black shirt with an apron over it with black pants rolled up at the bottoms.Lightish skin yet tan with green eyes. He looks at the girl and smiles

Waiter: Hi are you ready to order?

Girl: Yes um..(looks at his name tag) Danny I'll just take a mocha frappachino (smiles at him back)

Danny: Okay will that be all for you?

Girl: Yes thank you

Danny (waiter) walks away to put in her order. Girl picks up her book and reads.Girl laughs at something in the book.

Danny: Good book ms.?

Girl:  Amanda just Amanda and yes it is (puts down the book)

Danny: Well here's your order (puts the coffee on table)

Amanda: thank you very much (picks up book again)

Danny: hey...

Amanda: yes?

Danny: I'll be getting off work soon and uh...I could use a cup of coffee do you mind if I join you?

Amanda: It would be my pleasure...I could use the company too (smiles at him)

Danny walks away takes off his apron and walks over to Amanda with a cup of warm coffee in his hand.

Amanda: So been working here long?

Danny: Not really for almost 6 months now. Never seen you around new in town?

Amanda: No lived here all my life, I just thought I'd drop in for some relaxation

Danny: Oh I'm sorry I didn't ruin that plan did I?

Amanda: Nah its always nice meeting someone new

Danny: good...So what is it you're reading?

Amanda: (lifts up book) To kill a mocking bird

Danny: Oh I've never read that one

Amanda: me either just thought I'd pick it up I've heard so much about it.

Danny: me too I should go buy one or something.

Amanda: SHIT!

Danny: What??

Amanda: What time is it?

Danny: ten 'till

Amanda: ten 'till what?

Danny: haha nine

Amanda: Oh damn...I have to get going I'm gona be late

Danny: Late for what?

Amanda: oh nothing you'll just think I'ma nerd (starts shuffling around getting her coffee and book)

Danny: oh come on

Amanda: (blushes) I've been waiting a really long time to see this old black and white movie on t.v. and they're showing it today and I really REALLY want to see it AH but the thing is I have to walk home and its gona take forever and I'm probably gona miss part of it especially in these things (lifts up her foot showing her heel)

Danny: hah Well Miss. Amanda I happen to have a killer ride that can give you...a ride home

Amanda: (raises her eyebrow and smiles) well okay but come on its gona start!!

 Amanda gets up with her things. Danny gets his keys out of his pocket and walks with her out of the coffee shop

                                                   ::End of scene::

California isn't all that fucking great!!!!! Well maybe just a little ;D We do know how to party though...

p.s. you wont get  famous as soon as you step foot in hollywood sorry to burst your bubble

Alright I want to thank you for checking out my MYSPACE <333

 I know I gave you the livejournal link but uh...I know that was a dead end practicly cause its friends only >< lol my bad <3 

I got a xanga too if you want to check that one out: www.xanga.com/xhepcatx

I dont necessarly like xanga the only reason it like it is because it shows the actual album cover or movie cover of what you're listening to. I totally jamed out to some Juliana theory today but I can't listen to it on my computer anymore it shut me down I can't hear it anymore w/e its all good I could aways go onto Purevolume for that  cause IDK I love purevolume it actually has "the closest thing" I love that song thats the first song I ever heard from The Juliana theory. Uh I'll update later on how my day was I'm going grocery shoping I think <3

AAAAAAAALLLLLLLLL right kiddies. I'm up are you? Gosh...do you go to shows? Do the bands love you?  Cause they sure looooove me. Though they wont date me.......lol w/e. So I was thinking about...how much I rock...no j/k I'm not that concided. I might go to the beach tomorrow!! I don't want to get my hopes up though cause if my mom acts like biznach like usual she wont take me. So I kinda have to stay up just in case she trys to pull something. I just totally IMD someone that...I dont really talk to...but I'm bored...so AYE!!  He miiiight be mad at me a little...i deleted him off of my myspace heh...he was all supportive and shit and I delete him I'm a bitch like that though... You all should still check out my myspace...cause I LOVE how all of you look at it. I totally like pimped it out.   so here we go again 

http://www.myspace.com/erica101  click on that lovers <3 to know how hot I am JUST KIDDING  I'm not hot....I'm EXCEPTABLE theres a diffrence.

 I miss brian x10. He's so awsome but he has a girl friend I bet he's spending like all this month with her. God what could have been. LOL...w/e his girl friend  is uh... "special" I'm cooler than her x10 ask aaaaange  psh...Oh and for the record I can't spell kiss my ass!!

♥ Erica

  Why cant my friends get what they desrive? I dont mean like badness I mean like good stuff. They desirve love and exc. I do too...where's my man? Hah...I'm glad that I'm not a hoe. What dose that have to do with anything I dont know!! I was like looking at the menu at quizznos right and I couldn't read the little words I was freaking out. I was like "mom can you read that?!?" She could I felt blind!! I'm worried I'll go bline for real.

  Oh and I've decided that I'm not gona have sex before marraige or w/e. I dont see how thats "cool" at all. I mean the guy  is just like ooooooooooh vagina!!!! You know? and Girls...get lose....guys...get empty?? yeah its not cool but you know whatever....yeah thats my decision.

 So I'm going to the tartan clan show (hopefully) I really want to go to that one a lot more than the xATSx show. Its punk lol I like to dance hahahaha anyway I probably will get to go the xATSx show but if my mom's like "you already went to one" then I'll be pretty happy with it I guess. I have to take the buss to get to the tartan clan show its all good, Curtis is suppose to come with me it might not work out but I hope it dose wish me luck guys!! and I just really want to see Phil and the gang. HEHE plus...its like 10 days from my b-day and they prolly will play a song for me...oh gosh I'm so nervous "!!!!!!" haha omg I have like butterflies in my stomach. How lame am I? ooooooooohh......I hope my mom dosen't ruin this for me cause I REALLY want to go.  On a deeper note....

 I'm really starting to think for my self and do what I want Ange is helping me out I love her x10. Her and Mike are now dating. They're my bestfriends and they're dating lol thats so weird I mean when they dated before it wasn't weird cause I didn't really know Ange or like her hehehehehe. But now I do :D

  I just took off my shoes and they smell....my shoes smell they're old converse ugh...w/e. Uh...myspace keeps freezing on me its annoying x10...

 I spent the night at Ange's it was fun...except I kept bothering her with talks about this guy...ugh...yeah we hung out it was fun we talked about stuff like "always" uh...everyone seems to think me and her are a "couple" hahaha wtf?!? but w/e

  I really like this guy...I dont want to like him...he has a g/f he's my friend. I'm not a whore. Not on perpouse of course ;)....uh......lets see what else....he's really nice he's a gentelmen he has manners he treats girls really well. If he hadn't followed me around at the show yesterday I would not have built up more feelings. I really dont want to like him I could cry not really but its a crazy pressure on my heart like fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck man  ya know? His friends would make fun of him for dating me fer sher ugh life sucks sometimes lol w/e i guess.....I don't want him to know I like him I dont want anyone ELSE to know I like him anyone else besides aaaaange  and my guy friend Isaac. I even rubbed his hand after he punched it on the floor dancing he asked me to kiss it but I was like...no...so I rubbed it Isaac saw and he kept making fun of me. I have low self esteem :(  hahahah god  I'm lame

 if you wanted to know how that story ended that I started I'll make it short and sweet......

  He drives her home they find out they have the same taste in music she likes him more because of that. She invites him in to watch the movie with her and her BOYFRIEND she tells him her best friend will be there too so he comes in. He likes her taste of movies. They're friends for a while and she confides in him stuff about her realtionship with her bo/f she tells him the good stuff not the bad...not the bad that is making her love HIM. He thinks she really loves her bo/f so he moves on to her bestfriend. Soon they both start dating (bestfriend and him) and she realizes she needs to get him back so she brakes up with her boyfriend yeah...
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 Its my BIRTHDAY!!!!!! Wish me a happy one ;)

Ange and me are going to tha beach hoes idk if we're getting in the water b/w.

Then me and my grandma are going to watch charlie and the chocolate factory.

I've been mean to her so yeah.

 Its my BIRTHDAY!!!!!! Wish me a happy one ;)

Ange and me are going to tha beach hoes idk if we're getting in the water b/w.

Then me and my grandma are going to watch charlie and the chocolate factory.

I've been mean to her so yeah.

 Quit being such a hoe Ange...If I had money I'd take you out for some Icecream to make you feel better. Then we'd go to santa cruz and I'd buy you a bunch of random shit lol like that cool flip book I thought was so fucking awsome no j/k lol....um....omg...i want to egg someones house fersher....

Then I'd go off and buy you a fake dick so you can tell people to suck your dick and there would be something to suck....hahahaha....

 Then I'd buy those big ass batteries for my boom box and we'd go to the beach...I'd get a tent too so we could sleep there. We'd bum it at the beach cooool......yeah be happy

I'm cooler than you.

 BLAH...I want some creepers...

 ::wispers:: I found some with cherrys on them::stops wispering::

 They're really nice and pretty and perfect, and you need to mind yo buisness.

 There's one good thing if we move to texas....

 THERE'S A GREAT PHSYCHOBILLY/ROCK-A-BILLY scene

 YES....

  If I lose some weight I can buy some of those rock-a-billy dresses ugh <3 I want one bad. Or just some seprates that'd be rad.

 Phil....get single

 Not that you read this but thats why I'm saying it!!!

 I'm hungry...you should feed me....some cheesecake

 um....sex....where are all the psychobilly/rockabilly gentlemen?

SO I'm an official yoga learner hehe, I like yoga a lot, except when its really slow and the moves are really simple, then it just irratates the shit out of me, especially with the stupid music. BUT with the advanced class I can do it and be metally...involved? Even if I'm not advanced I don't care I'm flexible and you know what they say, the more flexible you are the more open minded you are ;)

 I hella lost back fat lol I HATE back fat it makes people look like pigs. I think its discusting. Then again I have this thing for backs...hehe...and hands.

 So I want to lose all my back fat so I can get a KILLER back tattoo and I want to lose the arm fat cause thats just not cool you know?  I'm pretty happy heh...

 I placed a bid for those creepers on E-bay and we won the bid :) I'm hella excited I want those bad <3 

  Anyway uhh...school starts in a few DAYS I'm pretty nervous about that. I'm gona be hella hot fersher. I know I'm gona get shit for the style change but you know what? I've always admired this style I thought it looked really good I just never thought about wearing it well...I am now so stfu haha.

 They don't have any openings in Sears but I'll call back in like a week and see if they do because people will be leaving for collage and stuff you know?  So it will be very convinient for me :)  a door opens another door closes!

 But geez was I nervous when I called you have NO idea. Whatever I'm hungry I want like...a fucking smothee(smoothe?) yeeeeeessssssss....

I'm super RAAAAAAD  check out my myspace profile hoes

http://www.myspace.com/erica101  add me if you want loves <3

or Livejournal

http://www.livejournal.com/users/xlyrically_vile/

Yeah and check out this other really fucken raaaaaaaddddddddd myspace profile it owns yours!

http://www.myspace.com/aaaaange

 its really fucken scary when you hear something you fear most...come from someones thoughts.....like it proves what you believed true....not that I didn't need to hear it but I guess I just.....idk need to do what I know is right for ME....I'm getting frustrated.....really frustrated.......I'll go to class.....even if it is our anniversary and if he makes me feel bad....ugh......fuck this shit I fucken hate this.......I doubt.......fuck idk I'll prove all this shit wrong.......

We're moving......closer to watsonville.....cause that fucken retard got fired for being a drunk.....well......retard.........thats cool I guess but now I need to clear all the shit from my room......I need to sleep....some time.......yeah.......whatever